Friday, April 15, 2011

bonding with baby

I know some people feel an immediate bond and love for their babies. For me, it was not that way. I never got depressed or wanted to harm him. It was just that, I didn;t know him. How can you love someone you don't know. As soon as we got home I did everything for him and took care of him. I fed him every couple hours, held him, took pictues of him. checked on him while he slept. But, I didn't really love him. I felt responsible for him and knew it was my duty to care for him. After a few weeks of baby being home my husband said something like, "Now, you really love him, don't you?" And I was like, "What do you mean?" And he said, "I've noticed now that you tell him you love him and you give him hugs and snuggle him, when at first you didn't do that." I confessed that he was right, and that it just took time for me to develop a bond. I am not the kind of person to instantly connect with someone. It take time to open me up. I don't think there is anything wrong with me. I grow to love my little boy more and more each day as I get to know him and get to be a part of his life. He has always been important to me, but after 8 months of being with each other, he is a part of me.

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